Introduction: Blooming;

Sunday, July 30, 2023

Who I was, who I am, and who I will be is blooming; spiritually and creatively. I think it’s important that I introduce myself as the creative I am and have been, before anything else. The first blog post for SOUL Thoughts was originally going to be a written piece on how important a harvesting season is in our lives. Instead though, as I was writing this particular blog entry I received confirmation on why this post needed to come first so here we/I are, giving you the tea of what my creative journey has looked like.

I love when the universe tells me I am on the right path. 

Nothing in life is a coincidence in my eyes, so naturally I take everything as a sign of deeper meaning. I love knowing the history and the reason behind things, and I think the universe has the beautiful way of showing us just how predestined our lives can be. Recently, I created an Instagram Post about the meaning of my name, birthday and angel numbers and how they’ve all played a role in my life's creative journey. But let’s break down my parents first because after all, it started with them. My mothers name is Terri, a Greek name that means “people’s ruler, harvester, huntress” (yes, this was the confirmation I spoke about earlier). My fathers name is Jamal, an Arabic name that means “handsome, good-looking” and symbolizes strength, confidence, and elegance. Which makes me giggle because my father is known to be handsome, but more importantly he has always embodied strength and confidence in my eyes. In fact, both of my parents are. After all, you can’t be the people’s ruler and not have those qualities. 

My Father, Mother, and OG Nana back in the day (iykyk)

I guess the joke is on me that my mother and father would name me Chloé, a name that means “blooming, fertility” that also biblically means “green herb”, because I have rebirthed myself as a woman and a creator as many times as I can count. If you follow me on Instagram you know it’s normal for me to go on a hiatus almost every year where I take a step back from posting. Usually this is because there is some form of balance I am looking to regain, but with every hiatus I feel as though an old layer of being sheds and gives birth to anew.

Which brought me to my next aha moment - my mother gave birth to me the third day of the third month, on March 3rd. The number 3 by itself is known as one of harmony, wisdom, and time- past, present and future. Then what got even more wild for me was finding out that when combined, thirty-three (33, 3/3) is known to symbolize the promise of God, as this number is the numerical equivalent to the word, AMEN, and its angel number (which is also relevant for me) symbolizes creativity, balance, expression and the building of a life you want to live. 

I needed to take a beat because if you understood my journey?! Man. *inserts all my life I had to fight meme* I’ve had this odd relationship with my creativity ever since I discovered I had one. Not using every day to walk in my purpose had me feeling like I wasn’t fulfilling my destiny and was letting every talent I have go to waste as the years have come and went. I’ve always known what makes me happy, but the answer felt too “simple”. How can helping people through creativity and thoughtful conversation earn you an honest living? Do people even dig thoughtful conversation anymore? Do they even like to read blogs still? The days of being flooded with doubt and fear had me in a standstill for a long time, yet I always found myself feeling the most alive in spaces of creative expression. It’s as though the universe kept telling me it’s where I belong, and it will protect me in that space as soon as I am ready to take the leap to stand in affirmation more than fear. That’s when I realized I needed to just do what I love and use my voice, even if it reaches just one person and that person was me, that was most important. But I do hope this reaches more creators than just myself.

My parents are both creatively gifted, and that rubbed off on my sister and I. Neither my father nor my mother had one lane they stuck to. They are both multi-talented. Anything from visual arts like painting, textiles and sewing, writing, and even being musically gifted, they’ve got it. But the world around us encourages a societal standard of choosing a one lane life, which is why I feel like I never got to see either of them fully thrive in all of their gifts. I’ve discovered the one lane life doesn’t work for me either, though. Every time I tried to “pick a lane” I ended up feeling so fed up, in a box, and stifled that I just stopped sharing most talents all together. I have, and have seen others like me, struggle in this for long enough and wanted to create a space that encourages the opposite for myself and them. I needed a positively disruptive space to just, be and create things that came from my SOUL. 

It’s as if every frustrating moment of transformation was exactly where I needed to be, to finally get me here and I finally did it. I created this website to be the host hub of my business and platform, SOUL, that will act as a digital diary and space for the multidimensional creative in me [and you] to create, uplift, motivate and connect. We are going to offer interior styling and creative marketing services here, as well as share thoughts and ideas on how to take control of our lives and get unstuck. My creativity grows like an herb in harmony: wherever it wants to, whenever it wants to- without permission. So here I am birthing and blooming a space that allows the creative being in me [and you] to flourish. I can’t wait to see how this space grows and encourages even more growth in all of us. Little [insert your name] deserves it. 

Young me and my incredibly talented sister, Mary’Iam. 🧡

With Love Always, 

Chloé Jjárrí